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Van’s dharma talks are based on his nearly 40 years of spiritual study and practice, and his extensive, in-depth personal practice in all forms of healing and personal growth, applied to his almost two decades of experience as an awakened teacher in the Trillium tradition (formerly Waking Down in Mutuality). Listen to Van’s talks on topics that range from meditation to awakened mutuality, as experienced in Van’s unique perspective.
The Heart of Radiant Sacred Love – Talk and Meditation – 11/20/21
Love, Feeling, Adoration, and Our Glowing Sacred Heart – Talk and Meditation on Heart Soul Nature
May 25, 2012 Magic Ma–Mini-workshop on the Divine Mother
The Amrita Factor of Radiant Whole Being – 3 Part Series
The Amrita Factor of Radiant Whole Being Part 1 – Introduction
The Amrita Factor of Radiant Whole Being Part 2 – Dharma Talk
The Amrita Factor of Radiant Whole Being Part 3 – Guided Meditation
Divine Love Bliss aids the Embodiment Process – Excerpt from the “The Amrita Factor”
Van’s Theory of Existence – Excerpt from the “The Amrita Factor”
How to Recognize Whole Divine Being from Moment to Moment
Van’s Definition of the Core Conscious Paradox
The Core Paradox/Conscious Paradox: the Ultimate Truth of Existence and of Our Being – 3 Part Series
Van’s Path to Awakening – 3 Part Series
In this three-part interview with fellow Trillium Awakening teacher Deborah Boyar Van shares an honest, intimate, and revealing account of his spiritual journey.
Van’s Path (Part 1) – Love, Grace, Psychedelic Drugs, & the Spiritual Banquet
In this three-part interview with fellow Trillium Awakening teacher Deborah Boyar Van shares an honest, intimate, and revealing account of his spiritual journey.
Timestamps:
00:03:50 – Intro and overview
00:10:00 – Second birth/Whole Being Realization
00:12:00 – Grace on the path
00:15:00 – Psychedelic drugs as an opening factor
00:22:00 – Looking to get “high” without psychoactive drugs
00:30:00 – Spiritual banquet – discovering dharmic paths & holy people
00:35:00 – Introduction to Adi Da’s teachings
00:42:00 – Van’s “Rot” period
Van’s Path (Part 2) – Family Trauma, Therapy, Waking Up, and Waking Down in Mutuality
Timestamps:
00:01:00 – Family trauma issues
00:02:00 – Therapy
00:12:00 – Hearing about Saniel Bonder’s awakening from a friend
00:13:00 – First sitting with Saniel and awakening story
00:16:00 – Witnessing thoughts – Embodied Feeling Witness Consciousness
00:17:00 – Readiness from being in “the Rot”
00:19:00 – Blaze of Consciousness and radiant Divine Love of initial Whole Being Realization
00:20:30 – Experiencing centerless, uncaused love
00:21:00 – Whole Being Realization
00:22:00 – Fused into the world and seamless unity experience
00:25:00 – Post-awakened life and evolution into teaching
00:27:00 – Discovering further maturation of Whole Being Realization
00:29:00 – The value of exploring, experimenting, and improvising in teaching
00:30:00 – Apprenticing with Saniel
00:34:00 – Saniel advises Van to start teaching
00:35:00 – Van’s first sitting as a teacher
00:38:00 – The importance of both structure and improvisation in teaching
Van’s Path (Part 3) – Unique Awakenings, Post Awakened Life, and Divine Love-Bliss
Timestamps:
00:01:00 – Uniqueness of each person’s awakening & discovering gradual awakening, aka “Oozing in”
00:02:00 – Adapting the teachings for each person’s needs
00:04:00 – Van’s experience with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
00:06:00 – Whole Being Realization is not a fixed state – bodily experience of it fluctuates
00:09:30 – Stable access to the Core Paradox
00:10:30 – Deepening in unity
00:11:30 – Recognition that there is only singular Radiant Divine Being
00:13:00 – The Amrita Factor – the experience of radiant Love-bliss and “divine intoxication”
00:15:00 – The shift in identity from human to divine
00:17:00 – Everything and everyone is a divine manifestation
00:18:30 – Meeting David Spero
00:19:00 – Love-bliss intensification and spiritual deepening with David Spero 00:21:00 – Devotion and the Divine Feminine
00:23:00 – Bliss in Waking Down
00:25:00 – Three aspects of Divine Whole Being – Consciousness, Shakti, & Love-bliss
00:26:00 – Expanding Trillium’s core dharma/teachings
00:31:00 – Integrating Love-bliss into Trillium & the Divine Feminine
00:39:00 – Realization of all-inclusive divinity in later stages of awakening (Note: Van has coined the term “ultra-singularity” as a key element of the later stages, after this interview.)
June 28, 2020 – The Nectarous Singular Onlyness of Whole Divine Being – Dharma Talk and Guided Meditation
July 21, 2020 – The Blissful Inherent Wellness of Radiant Divine Being
March 22, 2020 – The Simplified Short Version of Van’s Evolved Dharma
August 27, 2019 – The Intensity of Whole-Being Realization – Trillium Awakening Sitting
August 20, 2019 – Spiritual Resonance and Receptivity to Transmission – Trillium Awakening Virtual Sitting
August 13, 2019 – Embracing the Paradox of Being a Divine and Human “Fused Sandwich” – Trillium Awakening Virtual Sitting
Spiritual Diversity
Audios
September 18, 2015 Northeast Deep Dive Retreat
Beholding the Supreme Divine Beloved Dharma Talk
July 1, 2015 Transfiguration Retreat Sitting:
How to Make Awakening/Awakened Life Yummier and Happier–Inherent Divine Love, Bliss, and Radiant Shakti Juice
June 06, 2015 Virtual Presentation:
Orientation to the Supreme Heart Meditation and Transmission
May 16, 2015 in New Jersey:
Radiant Love-Bliss and the All-inclusive Unity-Simultaneity of the Supreme Heart
May 15, 2015 in New Jersey:
Consciousness Exploration Guided Exercise
September 20, 2014 at the Northeast Deep Dive Retreat:
The Supreme Divine Feminine (56 min)
September 18, 2014 at the Northeast Deep Dive Retreat:
The White Heat Dharma Talk (1 hr 17 min)
July 23, 2012:
Heart-Realization Stages
Recitation from June 4, 2012:
The Radical Great Reveal – Part 1 and The Radical Great Reveal – Part 2